I am no longer who you think I am!

Updated: Jun 17, 2020

Dilemma of fulfilling other's expectations. How far one should go?


I am not who you think I am
I am not who you think I am

Seven years ago I was the seed of Bodhi Tree. A seed which you can hold in your hand. A seed which you can throw away if you want to. A seed which you can bounce around and play. A seed which initially wasn't ready to lose itself in the darkness of the fertile ground to become a Tree. A seed which had ego and who thought of itself as a separate existence. Separate from all of you and separate from divine. For a long time this seed remained just a seed and nothing good happened to it. Anyone could hold it or leave it. Finally, the seed realized this is not who I am, this is not the full expression of who I am, this is not how it could be and this is not how it should be. And if I want to find who I am, at first I have to lose my ego and have to surrender to the darkness of this fertile ground, to the spiritual sadhana. I did that. Seven years ago, I buried myself deep into the fertile ground. The fertile ground started poking me, peeling me, breaking me, changing me, and time to time my remaining ego kept on surfacing up the